2 F*cking F Words

You know, some things haven't been easy to me, things about feelings. There are two words in mind that I can't work with together, even trying hard as right now: forgive and forget.

We had big plans together, we've built great hopes and wills, and now I'm walking alone my way. I always though I'd have you here by my side and for a long time it supported me to keep going further. After all the things we've passed through together, I've never though I'd write this kind of post. How can I forget? Forget our plans, forget the love that you gave me and accept that everything is over? It hasn't been easy, maybe for you but not me, even after 3 months.

I'm trying to forgive, really, I've been trying day by day. I'm living what my life has reserved for me to feel better things and don't feed bad feelings about you in my heart. I know these bad feelings could make me sad, angry, and heavy and I don't wanna be that way. I need to think and to consider good things for me, make me feel good, but it's too soon to forgive. Trust me, I'd like to forgive you as faster as I can, to go on in my way without any fear. But I can't do it. I need more time, time to 'rebuild' myself.

Yesterday, I missed your hugs... Today, I woke up crying missing you by my side. But I know, everything's gonna be alright, I'm fighting for it.